My SO celebrated his birthday on Wednesday and we plan to have some drinks on Saturday. That will entail leaving my LO with my sister for a few hours during the day into the evening. To try to ease this I have been leaving her for short times with my sister (who she knows) with toys and with her big sister around and my four month old just screams.
I know of seperation anxiety usually from 6 months but four months is ridiculous.
Now because of her blood curdling cries I’m up at 3:00am on Friday morning worrying about the feasibility of Saturday’s outing.
My heart is beating no thumping, I feel nauseous, I have a headache and I can’t sleep. My nerves of being away and her crying endlessly till I get back is taking a toll on me. This is an avoidable seperation.
I’m stuck between a rock and sever hard places.
I’m slowing becoming depressed about leaving her. I think it’s harder on me that her.
All the what ifs play in my mind.
What if my sister can’t handle it and just leaves her to cry? I know that won’t happen but my mind is plaguing me with questions.
What if she is so upset she won’t eat or sleep or even calm down? I’d be far away on a boat at that and not able to come home!
I’m a mess.